Are you serious???

2 days ago I could work from home just fine. Yesterday i called our help desk to get connected to Oracle, a program I needed and had been updated since my maternity leave. Today, I can't connect to work at all from home. I stayed home as I have bronchitis so I don't infect anyone at work and I can take it easy. Well....I'll be taking it REAL easy now as I can't work. Augh....

First day back.....

Here I sit at work on my first day back full time and I'm trying to NOT think of my baby that I left at day care. I know I'm a much better mom when I'm working. I know he is in good hands. I know I was looking forward to this time of separation and time for me, and yet....I miss him. Maybe it's because work isn't what I left. It's no longer a fun place to work, but rather just a job. People have changed. The culture here has changed. The impending doom of low orders and rumors of being sold off are hanging over our heads. The one thing that is a blessing is that I know that whatever happens God is in control. He helped me control the tears that threatened to come as I drove away from the Day care home I left my baby at. He is in control of my job and whether my company gets sold or not. He is in control. I am not. And for a type-A control freak....that is weird, but I am ok with it. Ah....back to work.....

The best laid plans.....

As my part time status is quickly coming to a close I realize that I need more than a few hours of sleep a night and am desperately trying to train my 4 month old son to sleep through the night, without a pacifier. It seemed like a noble idea a few days ago; however, after 3 nights of wrestling with him (what a mental image huh?) I am wondering who will come out the victor. I need to win this battle though so I can't give up even though I scarcely have the energy to do my work and play with my 2 year old who just wants mommy to have some energy left over for her, poor dear. I have 3 more days to train him. Then we have a 10 day whirl wind of activities and then Josh and I both start back to work full time and the kids are in day care. Wow......

HAA HAA! I have finally mastered one little peice of blogging technology (if one can call it that)...my slideshows of my husband, kids, and beloved Story People.....Please take a moment to enjoy the pictures as it took me a few HOURS to figure out how to post them:)

Pacifier/Sleep training

I know I'm not a bad parent, but letting my child cry it out for 10-15 minutes is heart breaking. I know it is just a few short days of hell to get to this wonderful place where they sleep well and don't need a pacifier again (Praise God) but in the short run it's hard. I know I will not miss trying to search backward with one had frantically for a pacifier while driving with the other though:) Here is to a few days of craziness for blissfulness to follow.....Lord help us all....

Rest please????

Not that anyone is really reading this yet, but I feel the need to scream- REST PLEASE! I am so tired it seems all the time that I know the real me will pop out if I could just get more than 2 hours of sleep at a time, and more than 4-5 hours a night. I'm busy all day and it seems all night....I wish I could just sleep for like 6 hours straight- is that too much to ask?

Another Family Reunion Survived!

So yet another family reunion has come and gone....and I have to say for a gathering of 20+ people from 4 generations, 3 states, and 2 countries- it was fantastic. Josh and I had a wonderful time hanging out with family, playing tennis, going to the pool- and just relaxing. Now 1.5 weeks before another trip- back to Santa Rosa for Josh, Miah and me for work. Abby will get to stay with grandparents while we are gone....