First day back.....

Here I sit at work on my first day back full time and I'm trying to NOT think of my baby that I left at day care. I know I'm a much better mom when I'm working. I know he is in good hands. I know I was looking forward to this time of separation and time for me, and yet....I miss him. Maybe it's because work isn't what I left. It's no longer a fun place to work, but rather just a job. People have changed. The culture here has changed. The impending doom of low orders and rumors of being sold off are hanging over our heads. The one thing that is a blessing is that I know that whatever happens God is in control. He helped me control the tears that threatened to come as I drove away from the Day care home I left my baby at. He is in control of my job and whether my company gets sold or not. He is in control. I am not. And for a type-A control freak....that is weird, but I am ok with it. Ah....back to work.....